Lacking in appreciations

Living is hard. Living is simple.

Played in a volleyball tournament today. Lost all my games, but that's OK. I guess you've got to lose sometimes.

We had a couple little discussions about gaining or losing brownie points today. Some people are apparently convinced that I'm firmly entrenched on the 'good list' for no real reason that I can see. All I do is my job, and pretty poorly at times.

I'm going to try to go to bed early tonight. I can't be losing sleep any more. I need to not think about some things any more. I need to get out of being just in between, just stuck.

What I am doing here?